I hope you are well and having a good start to 2022!
As much as I love writing I have found myself struggling to find topics to write about, I say this purely for the fact that I can sit and write in my journal for hours and yet any time I want to write something for the blog I seem to have a mental mind block. I sat and thought about this for quite a while and then I came to the conclusion that I am going to start a little series here where I find a journal prompt and then just write. It seems silly but someone once told me the only way to start is to pick up the pen and start writing.
I thought we would start today. We can call this the pilot of the series I think.
“Why do you write like you’re running out of time?”
If I’m being honest I wasn’t expecting to come back to my writing spot quite so soon but I needed a break from academic writing and the serious realisation that things are going to change again. You see I am perfectly accepting of the fact that change is inevitable it however does not make it any easier.
When I started my masters degree it seemed like a solid stepping stone towards the career I want to pursue, and yet as I am finishing my masters I am in a whole other position. I am now working full time and living somewhere completely new. (well almost 6 months now but still.)
When I first started writing with the journal prompt “Why do you write like you are running out of time?” It made me smile because I thought obviously of Hamilton but it was back in June of 2021 and I was having a freak out about the fact I was turning 23. You see I had a plan from the moment I started college to where I wanted to be at 25 and now writing this I am 5 months away from turning 24 and I am slowly getting used to being ok with the slight detour the plan has taken. We may not have checked off everything of what we wanted to be doing by 25 but I have to trust in the fact that everything happens for a reason and that the universe has my back. The plan just needed a few little tweaks.
I think the biggest change is my mindset. I used to feel bad and sorry for having high standards and ambitious goals. People used to tell me that I was too closed off and didn’t give people a chance. I was too fussy. It took a slight misjudgement on my part and an event I would take back given the opportunity to realise there is nothing wrong with having goals that may seem too big to others. Self-preservation is not something that is necessarily bad and we human mistakes are what make us grow. Mistakes give us opportunities for personal growth. To realise the person we want to be and the person we really do not want to be.
You see, despite the fact I am more than aware that change is inevitable and there is nothing we can do to stop it, it is the first time in a long time I am accepting the fact it is okay to not have a set plan. We do not have to have our goals ticked off at the same age as others around us for them to be successful. Time is relative and when it is meant to happen it will. Change is an opportunity for growth and abundance. Being concerned by change will only hinder your personal journey.
I used to find and still do sometimes, find myself questioning the ‘what if’ what if I had told someone how I felt earlier, what if I had stayed and the job, what if I never moved. All these questions sometimes feel like they are consuming my everyday thoughts and yet what ifs are not going to help plan your future, what ifs can be seen as lessons learned but more importantly they are past thoughts to let go of.
I used to write my thoughts down as a method of dealing with the fact I felt like I did not have enough time to achieve the things I want from life. Now writing becomes a reminder we can set goal dates but if we do not achieve them by that date it does not mean we have to give up on that goal.
Maybe just maybe Change is a good thing.
What are your thoughts on Change?